Thursday, September 24, 2009

诗人的眼泪


思念
一种幸福的忧伤
一种甜蜜的惆怅

思念
昨日悠长的沉湎
未来美好的向往

思念,一种无形的距离
没有距离,就没有思念

如果是空间的距离
那思念便是甜蜜的,甜蜜的笑着流泪
如果是心灵的距离
那思念便是苦涩的,苦涩的笑着流泪

彼此的思念,是幸福的
单向的相思,只有哀愁
被他人思念,则是负担

月亮,思念的最大受益者。
人类向月亮注入了浓郁的情感。
渐渐的,
月亮让思念有了形状。

月亮弯的时候,思念也弯;
月亮圆的时候,思念也圆。
思念,是有形状的

思念让你对着月亮流泪,
思念让你对着月亮含笑。
无论月亮是弯是圆,
无论你是哭着还是笑着,
思念都是一首皎洁的诗。

思念,像一道蜿蜒向上的阶梯。
向上一直向上,直上云霄,看不到尽头。
思念,虽有方向
思念,却没有尽头

沉沉的压在眉头,把人的三叉神经压得生疼。
的确,思念是有重量的

思念是有重量的,思念的方向是向上的
思念是地球上唯一违反地心引力的东西

思念,一种很玄的东西

Sunday, September 20, 2009

✿Selamat Hari Raya ✿


Aduh,
Sudah lama tak tulis bahasa melayu
berasa tak sesuai bagi saya
sangat kek !!!
Tak apa la, tulislah

Sebenarnya,
Hari ini tak ada apa-apa hal penting bagi saya
hanya berasa sangat sikit orang saja lah
Pagi ini, saya pergi ke pasar dengan keluarga saya
Tak boleh cakap sangat awal lah
Kami jom pada pukul 9:30 pagi
balik sudah pada pukul 11:30 pagi
haha, semua sayur-sayuran sudah dijual
kami hanya dapat beli sedikit saja

Bagaimanapun,
kami masih dapat beli semua barang
yang kami hendak beli
Selain itu, saya juga dapat khabar tentang
semua penjaja tak akan buka pada hari esok
Aduhai, esok mau makan sendiri lol

Memang tak ada apa-apa mau tulis lagi
mau tidur sekarang
Selamat malam, semua orang ♥

✿Selamat Hari Raya ✿

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Ladies and Gentlemen


Ladies and Gentlemen,

If you really are curious about me
just ask me straightly
I will try my best to answer your Q

Actually,
my friends are not too understand my mind now
because my mind change, change and change
If have any comment on ME
just post it up

I know last time you all cannot post the comment
I think now ok already
^^ Thanks for visiting my BLOG ^^

Friday, September 18, 2009

Birthday Boy *Wen Kang*

Last week
We go XUAN music cafe
to celebrate
Wen Kang de 20s' birthday

Actually,
This is a gathering for 6 of us too
even if hui lu din attend
very miss all of them

I share many things with Hai Leng
Yet, she's the one support me 100%
she saw me laugh, she will laugh too
she saw me say, she will sad too
yet, she will not say anything to comfort me
she juz listen wat i m sharing to her

I have leaving a message on the XUAN's wall
about HIM de
the last message for him before giving up

The night
also is the last time I recall ours memory
mostly HAPPY thingy
the hurt thingy try to forget it
coz juz wan to be friend with him now

Long time no see ya, GUY
donno where are you now
I can't recall ur familiar face already

donno WHY ???
Since last two weeks
I seem dull when I alone
I can't laugh when I meet u
I really can't treat u as my ordinary fren
coz I hv fall in you since the past

Actually, I really forget wat i hv told u
Nvm, juz let tis small small secret keep in my heart
Shhhhhhh~ If u know who is HIM
This secret is not a secret anymore
but, still donwan let him know actually~

arh... come back come back
don think bout him already ^^
let's talk bout wen kang,
haha~ he wan success alreadi
A gal told him, "I'm single now"
seems like giving chance for him
WEN KANG, gambateh oo~

That day, we pass this msg to the singer
She read the sentence out~
Woo~ very HIGH
although juz our gang shouted only =.=
We still seem quite happy de

juz wan to recall wat happen on tat day la ^^
hope u enjoy it ~~

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

MeaningFuL




 我是Vampire ι 我要Blood ™

没有血的供应,需要自给自足
这张照片,给了我很大的冲劲

角落泪珠





昨天
在Library 的一个角落
咪书

铃声响起 “你阿爸找你,你阿妈找你…”
一接,原来是慧璐

一句
- 楚晶,你还好吗 -
一颗颗珍珠般的泪珠
从绝望的眼神中崩溃
畏缩在沙发怀里哭泣

昨天的我
对世界的绝望,竟有自杀念头
只想不断逃避,只想一死白了

- 啊 -
是时候看心理学家了
脑海中竟有三个楚晶
不是天使凡人与恶魔,只是崩溃堕落与疯癫
不是中度精神忧郁症,而是严重精神分裂症

知道自己情绪状况
却仍坚决不去看医生的想法
因为
我那不为人知的秘密,决不能给任何人揭发!

为什么?
只是想保护自己而已
因为,我是 Protector

- 现在的我,伪装出来 -
我本也以为这就是我,原来这一切都是虚构
我早已将楚晶埋没了
楚晶的苏醒,天晓得

- 慧璐说 -
以前的我竟充满信心
我却毫不知情
因为我认为那是
- 理所当然 -

我不曾肯定自己能力,因为我不但没有信心
而只会埋怨自己无能,达不到自设完美要求
心痛,失败,崩溃
家庭,朋友,学业

40分钟的通话
泪流满面的我,滴湿笔记沙发
01分钟的通话
展开微笑的我,收拾玻璃碎片

这一次
没有感情问题,是个完美开始
冷淡寂寞的我,才是真正的我

爱我,就爱他
他,孤僻个性
流泪,发泄情绪的唯一途径
理智,禁止暴力与粗口爆发
若不哭泣
忧郁症和精神分裂症
就会接踵而来

Monday, September 14, 2009

SINS




Oh... NO !!!
my result is bad bad BAD
don't  know what feeling I have
in this moment

Just want to slap myself
Feeling very very sad
All the SINs are coming to ME
Don't know what happen to me nowadays
T want to concentrate on my studies now

From now
NO Facebook
NO MSN
NO Entertainment

I very scared
I will be kicked out from IMU
Really, very very scared
If I really am the loser this semester
I will choose to leave
leave from this school
leave from you all
just leave from the WORLD

ARHHHHHHHHH
Scared
losing my chance to achieve my Dream
letting my love disappointed

SORRY, my family !!!
especially my parents
Having this such a stupid daughter
can't getting a good result for u
You can't proud of me forever
If I really failed in this semester

Really sorry, mum and dad
This such a rubbish result
I really want to tear
but I choose not to
cause I still want to work hard
until the sem is over
may be my PAST will come back again?
^^ Hope so ^^

Thanks, GUYS
Always make me laugh and comfort me
Should I CONTINUE?
- YES -
Want to WIN?
 - YES -


Wednesday, September 9, 2009

♥ 09:09:09 ♥

What a lucky number
I really ♥ this number - 9

04.05.1989

04+05=09; 1+8=9
04+05+1+9+8+9=36
3+6=9

9
This number is specially for ME ♥
Muakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkksssssssssssssssssssss

09:09am
the 1st guy I saw
I will chase him

However, there is no GUY in front of me
as I am in the washroom
In this moment
I am gossip-ING with my GANG

09:09pm
the 1st ppl I chat
hope we can b fren forever

However, there is no GUY call me too
as my mobile phone don't have battery already
NeverMind, I don't put hope on it

I TRUST Myself
I can find my DREAM MAN
in my life
♥ Gambateh, ChuJin ♥

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Friday, September 4, 2009

一首旋律

一首,我很喜欢的歌
一首,牵动我心的歌
一首,让我落泪的歌
一首,不知幸福的歌

进来我部落客的朋友们
希望你们会喜欢这首歌
但是请不要爱上这首歌

因为它不能带欢笑给你
它会勾起你伤心的回忆
其实,也需要看你心情
开心就开心,全靠自己
独立的小孩,我的梦想


Tuesday, September 1, 2009

流泪的日子


今天
流泪流了很久
从早上流泪到下午

好累啊!
不是普通的累
而是崩溃的累
是心力绞碎的那种累

朋友啊,
我实在是对不起你们
让你们担心了

今天的我
不断的流泪
不断的狂笑
不断的生气
不断的自闭
看来我真的是吃太多奶粉了

其实很感激你们对我的包容
包容我这个又固执又撒娇的家伙
接受我这个性格烂脾气坏的朋友

反驳我,让我从睡梦中醒觉
嘲笑我,让我接受残酷事实

这些不是讽刺,
而是真正的鼓励与关怀

眼泪,
又流下来了…
好啦,是时候擦干了
是时候从失败中醒悟

谢谢
子健,你的一句话让我醒悟
嘉桓,你对我那份关怀与爱
海宁,你那替我可怜的眼神
婉薇,你的责骂就是我的爱

贪婪的追求,吝啬的舍弃


Should I still love a GUY?
or, choose a gal rather than guy?

I fell tired already
I know, I don have boyfriend before
That's why
You all will think that I wont hurt that much

Actually, you all are wrong
The guy I like before
I really like them
Yet, I was falling in them

I'll care about every word they say
I'll care about every motion they done
When I heard my friend comment such things to me

What I feel is,
- HURT -
Very very hurt, actually

Dont have boyfriend
that's not my fault
Do u think i don hv ppl chase b4?
Do u think i really so failure?

The things in my mind is,
I don like - I wont accept -
I like - I scared to accept -
coz I din fall in love with them
I will accept when I really love them

3 years - 2 guys -
2 n a half year is the secondary school guy
half year is the guy in IMU
They hurt me deeply until i scared to love any guy again

Should I become BISEXUAL ???
♥ May Be ♥

I wont miss u again, GUY~
I choose to escape from you
I choose to distruct the memory about you
I choose to delete all the things of you
ALL UR THINGY
That's why every ppl will say,
- You are too CRUEL -

In fact,
I scared I will cry
 - When you hurt me again
I scared I will regret later
 - When I really fall in you again
I scared you treat me as ICE
- When I try to chat with you
I scared my heart will be dump
- When I saw you post lovely things
but these such things are not for me

Our relationship not same as last time
It's OVER

 

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